Why I studied MBBS?
I don't now remember the date when I was in (mama-ghar) maternal uncle's house, probably the year of my elder sister's SLC year(2059BS) , mama had broken his spectacles. He wondered at that time that how it would be if one DOCTOR was to see him soon and check for his glasses ; and talked with my mom. By that way he told something to me, timile garnupachha bhanja! As my mamaghar is in village, a long way of hours from highway, he had to wait for a few months' time to get a new one pair of spects!
After that date I started to think myself as a good doctor but didn't know what the doctor was? I thought he was the one to cure the illness by prescribing the medicines. But never thought or asked anybody how some people could sell medicines and no others or all. In fact till that date I never had seen a real doctor!
After all that events mom would suggest me to study good. I never made her dissatisfied by my performances. I never studied my below 10 classes to be a doctor or like that, but knew only it was to be good of all. My all family members and mothers herself would always be happy. At that very moment, At the age of 15, I passed out my SLC in Distinction division. It was for the first time even in the history of my school get some position in the district board in SLC. Obviously it was a government based low economic class school in the far village, had secured the grade and somehow myself who thought till that time village was always ignored, were all in a celebration. Most of the happiest was my mom!
After the SLC a new lesson began. I Thought from that time I can challenge all collegues of same age all over the country. Due to various family reasons I studied +2 science from Butwal. There also I performed very well enough for my future. That was the time when I shaped myself , I think so.
When I was in grade 11, my mother suffered from Tuberculosis. It was lately diagnosed only. She suffered a lot for about 6 months all the classical symptoms of tuberculosis except hemoptysis. In the hand of quack she ate about 10 types of antibiotics but none helped. Even we consulted the reputed Doctors from Palpa hospital and Butwal zonal hospital but none could find out. After all one from Butwal Hospital suggested us for the TB DOTS course to follow. We checked 10s of sputum slides and then concluded with the MDR ATT. Mother then started to recover. She became 50kg in 4 months, from her weight 26kg weight at peak of illness.
During the day of my hospital stay at Butwal with my mother I saw a round of REAL Doctors with stethoscope around the neck talking about the illness and helping the patients in real ; not like the ones I had seen in the village selling only the same drugs for all illness talking only about the money! From that time my way of thinking took a real U-turn! I got a new respect towards the profession and committed with myself that one day I'll get through! I wondered the day when I will be helping the people like the one who helped us in the real difficult time by diagnosing my mother's illness. If I was not to feel the illness of my mother probably I would have been anything else! The theory of attraction worked, due to my great devotion I was the one!
At the mean time it was a trend all toppers from the college would fight for the entrance exams taken for medical schools. I then revived my old days how I'd passed and then started with a new energy. In reality others told, my mind was more mathematical than biological that would be needed to study for the medicine! Why I chose for the biology in 12th standard was spontaneous what my heart was telling to do.
After the 12th std. exam I went to Kathmandu for the real war which would never be like the small battles I had won. The You Can Win-Shiva Khera said, "success in life is not to win all the battles but to win the grand war!". So , in the valley of dreams I worked hard even against all the hards. My motto at that time was, "take hearts, take pains; then only u'll digest the success."
I made my all duties (towards myself, my parents, family et all.) be the desire of mine! For the first free entrance, I got 3 marks less than the winner in IOM and 1.23 marks less in MOE. After that, I felt I was too close of the success. I worked hard for days & for nights then after few months- in the MOE I got a position and started studying in scholarship in College of Medical Sciences, Bharatpur. At the meantime I had given entrance exams in IOM and Indian Embassy and Japan Embassy . Luck bychance, or whatever you say(?) , I stood 6th in IOM , 4th in IE and 2nd in JE! What I think in devotion or commit with ourselves is that what we get in future, which is always predictable.
As I am more interested in medicine and surgery as a whole, I may not be able to be an ophthalmologist like my mama dreamt for the first time. But it feels pretty good for them to say in front of public, my son is in the service of people , as a DOCTOR!
I don't now remember the date when I was in (mama-ghar) maternal uncle's house, probably the year of my elder sister's SLC year(2059BS) , mama had broken his spectacles. He wondered at that time that how it would be if one DOCTOR was to see him soon and check for his glasses ; and talked with my mom. By that way he told something to me, timile garnupachha bhanja! As my mamaghar is in village, a long way of hours from highway, he had to wait for a few months' time to get a new one pair of spects!
After that date I started to think myself as a good doctor but didn't know what the doctor was? I thought he was the one to cure the illness by prescribing the medicines. But never thought or asked anybody how some people could sell medicines and no others or all. In fact till that date I never had seen a real doctor!
After all that events mom would suggest me to study good. I never made her dissatisfied by my performances. I never studied my below 10 classes to be a doctor or like that, but knew only it was to be good of all. My all family members and mothers herself would always be happy. At that very moment, At the age of 15, I passed out my SLC in Distinction division. It was for the first time even in the history of my school get some position in the district board in SLC. Obviously it was a government based low economic class school in the far village, had secured the grade and somehow myself who thought till that time village was always ignored, were all in a celebration. Most of the happiest was my mom!
After the SLC a new lesson began. I Thought from that time I can challenge all collegues of same age all over the country. Due to various family reasons I studied +2 science from Butwal. There also I performed very well enough for my future. That was the time when I shaped myself , I think so.
When I was in grade 11, my mother suffered from Tuberculosis. It was lately diagnosed only. She suffered a lot for about 6 months all the classical symptoms of tuberculosis except hemoptysis. In the hand of quack she ate about 10 types of antibiotics but none helped. Even we consulted the reputed Doctors from Palpa hospital and Butwal zonal hospital but none could find out. After all one from Butwal Hospital suggested us for the TB DOTS course to follow. We checked 10s of sputum slides and then concluded with the MDR ATT. Mother then started to recover. She became 50kg in 4 months, from her weight 26kg weight at peak of illness.
During the day of my hospital stay at Butwal with my mother I saw a round of REAL Doctors with stethoscope around the neck talking about the illness and helping the patients in real ; not like the ones I had seen in the village selling only the same drugs for all illness talking only about the money! From that time my way of thinking took a real U-turn! I got a new respect towards the profession and committed with myself that one day I'll get through! I wondered the day when I will be helping the people like the one who helped us in the real difficult time by diagnosing my mother's illness. If I was not to feel the illness of my mother probably I would have been anything else! The theory of attraction worked, due to my great devotion I was the one!
At the mean time it was a trend all toppers from the college would fight for the entrance exams taken for medical schools. I then revived my old days how I'd passed and then started with a new energy. In reality others told, my mind was more mathematical than biological that would be needed to study for the medicine! Why I chose for the biology in 12th standard was spontaneous what my heart was telling to do.
After the 12th std. exam I went to Kathmandu for the real war which would never be like the small battles I had won. The You Can Win-Shiva Khera said, "success in life is not to win all the battles but to win the grand war!". So , in the valley of dreams I worked hard even against all the hards. My motto at that time was, "take hearts, take pains; then only u'll digest the success."
I made my all duties (towards myself, my parents, family et all.) be the desire of mine! For the first free entrance, I got 3 marks less than the winner in IOM and 1.23 marks less in MOE. After that, I felt I was too close of the success. I worked hard for days & for nights then after few months- in the MOE I got a position and started studying in scholarship in College of Medical Sciences, Bharatpur. At the meantime I had given entrance exams in IOM and Indian Embassy and Japan Embassy . Luck bychance, or whatever you say(?) , I stood 6th in IOM , 4th in IE and 2nd in JE! What I think in devotion or commit with ourselves is that what we get in future, which is always predictable.
As I am more interested in medicine and surgery as a whole, I may not be able to be an ophthalmologist like my mama dreamt for the first time. But it feels pretty good for them to say in front of public, my son is in the service of people , as a DOCTOR!
